Have you ever come to a point in your life where you just want to reflect on your life? I certainly have many a times and in the last 6 months I have seen so much and learned so much I feel like I was there for the last 6 years.
What has the last 6 months taught me? Well I will use the commonly known sayings "know your friends", "keep your enemies closer" "if they can talk about other people behind their backs trust they can do the same to you". Let's starts with know your friends.
1. Know your friends- my parents always told me if you hang with intelligent people you are more likely to be influenced by them and therefore be intelligent yourself. But as a child you always just want to do your own thing and not always what your parents have said, I hang around people who not only are intelligent but are loyal and trust worthy. I am not perfect and I may have spoken about people behind their backs and not as an excuse but when I do that it's because I can't get to you or through to you, I will ask other people so I can understand the reason am not getting through. Maybe me and my big mouth did or said something which to me may have been nothing to me but to you may have been a big something and to those friends I may have done that too I apologise. I know who my real friends are and I am grateful for them and to them.
2. Keep your enemies close - up until now I did not think I had any need for this statement I mean haters will hate but I never thought I would have to keep my so called enemies close (arms length). I am sure there are people who don't like me because am me or because am blessed or maybe because am black I don't know. But I do know of one person who despite my best efforts seems to think back stabbing me makes them a better person. I had never in my life gotten so angry that I resorted to putting my anger and feelings on Facebook. I am ashamed to think this person brought me to my knees because I stooped to their level. Everyday I learn that they talk about me, stalk me and degrade me just so that I can be isolated and not have any friends. Unfortunately for this person I have so much love, respect and God's knowledge to know that I will never walk alone EVER. What I do not understand is what did I ever do to this person for them to hate me so much. I know people in this world can be two-faced and believe me this one is but I just don't get it, how interesting am I to this person that they feel every waking moment they want to smear my name. This person knows nothing of my life, my plans and my ambitions and to make matters worse this person I can guarantee you will ask me who upset me (hahaha) I can't hack this. My advice to people who going through what am going through feed them nothing because anything they see or hear they twist it and try to break you but your stronger than that I am stronger than that.
3. If they can talk about others behind their backs they can talk about you - since I finished uni and started working have heard that people talk about me, some tell me it's because I inspire them (I am humbled by this) some I hear it's because they despise my simple mind. I like simple things in life and I flourish on them quite well I am told. There people who believe that such a simple life is a waste of time, having a bf who earns more than God is what they want not someone who earns enough to support you, your family, and maybe a holiday a year. No that's not acceptable I am told. The most funny thing about all this is this person has no love or true friendship in their life but they think I am at a disadvantage because of how simple my life is and they can not comprehend why I go to church. I feel so sorry for this person and yet this person does not see how happy my life is, God has given me so much and I believe all this that I am experiencing, this person who is trying to beat me down is just part of the trials and tribulations of this world. My God knows that I will come out on top not boasting just a matter of fact because God NEVER gives you more than you can handle.
Like I have mentioned in my earlier post I am an emotionally driven person and sometimes my emotions get the better out of me and I make mistakes but I am learning like instead of putting my frustrations on Facebook I have decided to always speak to my mother about them first or my partner or my friends. I have learned never to stoop to these people's level and avoid giving them the ammunition to fire at me.
***Word of advice to my haters, just because I put something on Facebook doesn't mean I am talking about my life sometimes I just watch movies and I comment on them. Even when I write a post or comment about how my partner has pissed me off it does not mean I have broken up with him or I don't love him anymore because my dear if that was to happen only my family and friends would know and I would inbox them not post it directly for your eyes to feast on.***
I feel so much better getting this off my chest and off my mind, now time to pamper me before the closing the year service, NYE fireworks display and a long kiss for my partner. Happy New Year to you all and thanks for reading my little baby blog.
Labels: Reflections
